If you were to add up the amount of minutes in a day that I battle insecurities and thoughts of worthlessness, it would be a larger number than I have in my bank account.
That might've been an exaggeration, but I imagine the heart behind the statement is relatable for many. I find myself stressing about how many Instagram likes I get, Facebook comments a post receives, or blog views my newest release attracts.
God might use me to slay a sermon, impacting dozens of people, and I still go home feeling discouraged.
I've never struggled with thoughts of suicide, but the battle I am experiencing in my mind every minute of every day cannot be overstated. I am tired of coming up with "catchy titles" for my life, only to receive pitty-likes and shares. I am searching to find true joy that I know can only be found in God. Maybe you can relate?
I have to daily remind myself that I have value in this world. I have to hold on to the truth that I am a soldier in God's army.
My insecurities will not define me.
I will not give the enemy ammunition.
No matter how I feel tomorrow, today I am still breathing.
One day at a time, I will continue searching for the joy that God promises His children.